I thought we are moving on.
I thought we are trying.
I thought we are gonna be okay.
I thought you would stay holding my faith.
I thought you are trying.
I thought we are improving.
Again, to know things by my own self, it hurts.
I don't share stories with people right away.
I keep it to myself, hurting alone.
"why should you stay with someone who hurts you while there is a guy that always make you happy"
It's not that I am controlling. I just afraid of losing you. hoping you got what I'm trying to say.
hmm I promise, if this (relay) is going on, I will be more considerate. and please promise, you will too. :')
Sunday
29 Ogos 2012
I dont know what happen to this world. sesuka hati mereka je nak pinda tarikh trial. nasib baik paper aku tak kena teruk. anyway,
GOOD LUCK BATCH 1995 :D
GOOD LUCK BATCH 1995 :D
19 Ogos 2012
SELAMAT HARI RAYA , MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.
Pagi raya aku mula dengan tangisan. and another torehan tangan. lepas kejadian teh tarik panas tu, kau tahu, pagi raya, aku cuba cari kawan bercakap. tapi aku faham semua sibuk. aku tak salahkan sesiapa. jadi aku lagi sekali bertindak toreh tangan tanpa berfikir panjang. yang ini masa sangattttt tak panjang untuk fikir. soo i was super duper desperate. and yess. i got scars. handful of scars.
these are just lines. because i dont even thinking i guess.
Pagi raya aku mula dengan tangisan. and another torehan tangan. lepas kejadian teh tarik panas tu, kau tahu, pagi raya, aku cuba cari kawan bercakap. tapi aku faham semua sibuk. aku tak salahkan sesiapa. jadi aku lagi sekali bertindak toreh tangan tanpa berfikir panjang. yang ini masa sangattttt tak panjang untuk fikir. soo i was super duper desperate. and yess. i got scars. handful of scars.
these are just lines. because i dont even thinking i guess.
16 Ogos 2012
hai all. this would be one of my hardest time till 16th August 2012. and yes, Love Failure.
For all, having a relationship is super fantastic. I swear.
Long term relationship ? SUPER HOT baby.
but guys to keep it up, its very hard. kadang kadang kita ingat kita dah buat yang terbaik, but still no enough. one thing to do is never ever tunding jari. it would be very stupid.
Kita tak boleh expect relationship stable je forever. there are always times where fight and betrayal. we just cant ignore all this stuff. face it, bear it, endure it.
yeah, and what i've been through, I swear it is fucking hard :'(
dear you, I know that I have no charm. and I know there are times where you get bored. but to know all this stuff. and i figure it out myself and not sharing it with anyone, it is stupidly fucking hard that I cannot stand any more. I could kill myself that night I swear. The pain is indescribable. I did what I promised I won't do.
Tak boleh tidur. So with unconscious mind , I do this. I swear, its kinda out of my control. and it still there today. aku bertattoo sekarang.
Stop saying it is berdosa and stuff. kalau aku boleh tahan diri, aku tahan. tapi tak boleh. aku tak sedar. menyesal ? mungkin, tapi benda dah jadi.dan benda tu masih ada.
trust me, kalau aku sedar, aku buat Infinity symbol. I have been love that symbol for so long. this symbol? aku pun tak tahu apa. i just start with a line (bottom line) but it was like.... i dont know what am i doing actually.
*malam tu, aku tak pasti aku tidur atau aku pitam. :'|
For all, having a relationship is super fantastic. I swear.
Long term relationship ? SUPER HOT baby.
but guys to keep it up, its very hard. kadang kadang kita ingat kita dah buat yang terbaik, but still no enough. one thing to do is never ever tunding jari. it would be very stupid.
Kita tak boleh expect relationship stable je forever. there are always times where fight and betrayal. we just cant ignore all this stuff. face it, bear it, endure it.
yeah, and what i've been through, I swear it is fucking hard :'(
dear you, I know that I have no charm. and I know there are times where you get bored. but to know all this stuff. and i figure it out myself and not sharing it with anyone, it is stupidly fucking hard that I cannot stand any more. I could kill myself that night I swear. The pain is indescribable. I did what I promised I won't do.
Tak boleh tidur. So with unconscious mind , I do this. I swear, its kinda out of my control. and it still there today. aku bertattoo sekarang.
Stop saying it is berdosa and stuff. kalau aku boleh tahan diri, aku tahan. tapi tak boleh. aku tak sedar. menyesal ? mungkin, tapi benda dah jadi.dan benda tu masih ada.
trust me, kalau aku sedar, aku buat Infinity symbol. I have been love that symbol for so long. this symbol? aku pun tak tahu apa. i just start with a line (bottom line) but it was like.... i dont know what am i doing actually.
*malam tu, aku tak pasti aku tidur atau aku pitam. :'|
Summary Writing ( 2-3 weeks )
I have left this shiaaat for quite a time already. I miss writing. like seriously :D and the worst part, i left it with ma Korean Invasion mesti sakit hati gilee bukak blog terus Kpop stuff kan ( for non Kpopers )
okay since rumah ni baru je upgrade UniFi ^^ hehehe kite testing laa dulu kan :D memang timely gile la kan masa nak trial ibu pasang UniFi. -_-
so yeah. I write everything happen in my green color daily diary :D *taking it* so imma doing marathon after this :D
hmmm i guess i end this now, okay bye :D
*sounds happy kan?*
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